simplicity is bliss.

2009-02-11T08:24:00.000-08:00

i finally got some time and connections. im online finally.

she's gone, im still broken, still getting a life trying to move on.

you still come into mind everyday, now and day. nothing seems to keep me occupied from the thought from you.

have i can convince myself to move on already.you moved on already?

maybe i ve managed to stop myself from contacting you, and i guess this is the best for myself to get over you asap, i still cant deny i am still waiting for a better tommorrow.

anyway you seemed happier now. good for you. i guess that's how it makes things easier for me to move on.

i hope you find a right guy. i give you my blessings.

i'll be gone for good. and i will return a better man, hopefully soon.

work's hectic, tiring and i still miss you.

april 2nd, hong kong, come soon...

photoeditting

2008-10-20T14:46:00.001-07:00

YES!! and my comp's finally back on... and at least i could say for now. SO IT'S INTENSIVE PHOTO EDITTING AND ALL THE WHAT NOTS!! =))

1st masterpiece, and i will get more done with after awhile. hope it's nicely appreciated. =)

i just got so crazy i didn't sleep because i stayed up doing insane things like this. =x

2008-10-02T00:11:00.000-07:00

yes i can't deny that i have been ignoring my blogger. but definitely everything comes with a reason. namely promos, studying, school, work, energy drained and i would definitely admit sometimes it's the LOUSY computer i have at home.

so i'm kinda active and more on the mood to blog today, mainly because of certain reasons:

i'm all alone in the library hogging onto her laptop.
she's off for lessons while the EVER-FREE me will be that EVER-BEST boyfriend to wait up for her. (you just have got to admit with me on this right???)
she's been constantly asking me to blog but i'm just really lazy everyday. cos i'm either doing other stuffs or otherwise sleeping or on the way home after sending her home.
i'm kinda chatty and really wish to share my thoughts here. =)

anyhow (or that should be anyway), hectic month's over!! promos are over! promo exercise's on 8/10. WHICH MEANS IT'S DOOMSDAY!!! =(( and after judgement day (promo exercise), i will know if i'm gonna stay or am i gonna leave.

however the feeling's just ain't really right this year. on one hand, i do get all anxious and crazy about how i'm gonna do for this papers. but on the other, does it really matter if i promote? will i even do well for A levels? i will then start getting really stressed up thinking about how i'm gonna spend my rest of my life, would i be earning minimal and suffering for the rest of my life till death or would i be able to succeed and make it big in future?

mum's asking me to go back to poly and choose to a decent course to graduate with a diploma. others are trying it out at SIM, private schools, etc.

i'm really limited to my choices. i just don't know what i should really do. =/ maybe this school's really a wrong choice to begin with. but i have to admit, it's such wrong choices sometimes that i get unexpected rewards. like a pool of friends i can count on whenever days are not that sunny, teammates i would not have met and went through my one and only A divs with, and how would i forget about the fact that you are brought to me and have never stop showering me with endless passionate love? these are definitely encounters that not much individuals would come across. FOR THAT, I ADMIT THIS WAS NEVER A WRONG CHOICE =)

as i'm waiting for her to finish school, i recalled 1/10 was so special for you baby =D

i hope the surprise was the best surprise you ever had baby! and there goes 2 strike-offs from your shopping wishlist! SPECIAL THANKS to the VOLLEYBALL GIRLS especially GERLAINE! thank you girls! you ladies just put a smile back to this silly girl of mine. CASSIE FONG SIOW CHI just got happier right?? haha

to you my happy lady, sorry for all the quarrels, sorry for the upsets, sorry for the lack of understanding, and sorry for the loss of smile in you. i hope you see the effort i have been putting in just to make you a lil happier. apologies that sometimei will hurt you unintentionally. I STILL LOVE YOU. don't walk away, stay with me, kiss me, and walk down the lane with me baby =))

2008-09-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

i promised you a post so i'm gonna do it JUST FOR YOU tonight. =)

days been busy, stressful, tiring and everything negative.
we quarrel, we fight, we argue and we tear.

but irregardless, you never fail to make me smile, crazily in love over and over again.

stay happy love, i'm always here for a listening ear and anything near to a ranting corner.
i promise i will listen with my heart, i promise i will get you out of this. together, we will have a happier tomorrow. please have faith in me and give faith to us.

i'm missing you badly even though i hardly show. i can't wait to see you the next time we part. i always try to stay strong to make myself look good and show i'm not feeling awful when you ain't around. but deep down, i'm lonely whenever you aren't there to hold my hand, to crack a lame joke, to hug me tight.

i need you. stay strong and stick to me. i will make you happier o baby yes i promise this to you.

i always pray for a longer hour to chill out with you.
i always make myself sound energetic over the phone though i had a tiring night just to make sure you feel secure whenever i'm not around.
i always hold you tight to let you know whatever it is, i'm stuck to you.
i always kiss you goodbye, hoping you will read my mind when i say "i miss you, can't wait to see u again."
i always can't help but to wonder about the bond we share whenever we text each other at the same time.

if you ain't around, what would be of me?

thank you for staying strong despite all upsets.
thank you for believing me that i will make a difference?

still wishing i ll wake up with you by my side every morning.

2008-07-14T09:53:00.000-07:00

special thanks and lots of appreciation for my 21st.

pre-21sts on 4/7 - 6/7:
4/7
one word to describe, AWESOME!!
fisherman's wharf was a simple 6-men dinner till late when every1 met up at CLUB de MASTER.

things turned for the better.

fun-filling, ,alcoholic, and getting WASTED!

appreciative to everyone who turned up, namely:
koon (could have sang more since it's my birthday celebration.)
jason (my sidekick, but yet first to drop dead on the floor. lying with milk and lime juice.)
beal (latecomer yet drink so little.)
kenghee (i know you can drink!)
PM (it's a pity you left early.)
bernad (ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING is the SEX man!)
kendrew (i swear you won't be invited if i hadn't bump into you.)

appreciative of people who i met, namely:
beal's dad (sorry i had to bring your son out to drink. YA RIGHT!)
beal's cousins (thanks for the accommodation and i swear you guys have to sing on my next visit!!)
VICKY (it was pure coincidence i had to bump into you there. but thanks for drinking up for me when i got all drunk and wasted man! HAHA!)

appreciative to someone special: BABY that's YOU! =)

5/7
Chilled out, WANTED was great! a lil exaggerated but who cares when i have you with me baby? =)

6/7
ADIDAS meet up! thanks for your A|X top Zaab!! =)
Lau Pa Sat, MAJOR FEASTS!!

thanks for meeting up... you guys are just way too happening as a bunch of retail associates!
i still miss the good old times. =((

i'm 21 and i'm LEGAL!!

been so caught up with school and work,
tiring tiring tiring...
my posts always end up so delayed.

school's way too crap.
i dread things happening in school.

2008-06-22T21:20:00.000-07:00

stick to me baby, i'm losing my mind missing you.

everyday was fun day with you this june. =)
i hope this continues!

8more days to 30th.

BE GONE EXAMS!!

2008-06-19T08:45:00.000-07:00

if you hadn't walk into my life, when would be the last time i smiled from the bottom of my heart?

if you hadn't walk into my life, when would be the last time i know every morning there's someone out there worrying about me?

if you hadn't walk into my life, when would be the last time i hear "I LOVE YOU" and meant it so truly that it melts my heart?

if you hadn't walk into my life, when would be the last time i get so contended just looking at a smile?

it doesn't take much of an effort to fall deeply in love. but why does it take so much of an effort to sustain this love that's meant for TWO lonely hearts?

that's called the extra mile and the extra effort.

you go the extra mile to look me up so that i won't miss you so much.
you go the extra mile just to give me a surprise that you are only a minute away.
you go the extra mile to wait up after school just for meet ups to prevent my lonely dinner tonight.
you go the extra mile to cheer me on and provided me the support to accomplish all stressful workloads.

you give the extra effort to assure me nothing will go wrong in this relationship.
you give the extra effort to peck a kiss on my cheeks to make me feel appreciated and loved.
you give the extra effort to stay up and wait till i'm home each night to assure i'm safe and sound.
you give the extra effort to listen patiently and forgive and compromise each time when i err.

when things are down, your slightest touch brightens my day.
you bring the sunshine after the rain.

thank you for everything. it's a month and 19days and still going strong.

a 1st quarrel was so minor yet unhappy.
i don't wanna quarrel. do know that baby.

i adore you as much as you do.
i love you as much as you do.
i cherish you as much as you do.

could you see how much i need you?
i miss you each time i lose sight of you.
when you ain't around, i await impatiently for each text to come by.
when i lose sight of you, the undesired emptiness fills in.

i need you with me. do you?

2008-06-09T09:53:00.000-07:00

it started off with "Dearest FELIX FATTY!"

a memorable phrase that went "I need you BOO! Gotta see you BOO! :) "

like how it ended there "i'llbethereforyou."

i thank whoever who drew YOU closer to me.
i bless whichever cupid that drew your attention to me.

i miss you.
when would we meet again?

you gave me the courage to pick up from where i was, and fall in love again.
you told me you treat me the best, i believe you.
you reciprocated, i'm thankful you're mine.

i feel assure and secure, do you?
i present you as my trophy, do you honour that?
i made you the star of my single player team, thanks for cherishing that.

i always remember how we felt towards each other. i always remember how you looked me in the eye while i looked into your colored contacts.

i love how you like how i crack my jokes. i like how you always stay close to me. i won't forget how you hug me.

i feel blessed.
i want this to last.

BABY I'LL LOVE YOU INDEFINITELY.

thanks for being mine.

2008-05-31T11:24:00.000-07:00

sometimes they call these flashbacks.
but it just happens too much too often.
i know it's bothering.
i've given up.
disappointments. agree to it.

i'm right. i'm happier, alot happier now.
you lost it. stop talking about it.

i wish 31st wasn't spent so lousily.

when would i see you again?

whenever you ain't around.

2008-05-25T21:01:00.000-07:00

tiring.
it's really tiring.
the last was so long ago.
2/8times fulfiled.
everything's all so nice. even the smell lingers on.
nothing spectacular
the lazing around is just too memorable.
myhappylady's.
that's how i'm labelled.
i'm fine.
i'm happy.

an icon-less malfunctioning desktop just seems so much more amusing with it's remaining function.

i'm loving this place.

2008-05-23T09:01:00.000-07:00

shocking. very shocking indeed. =) but it's alright. i know it's me you prefer! yay!
just promise me the 8times yeah? haha =p

besides everyone loves you more than they loved anyone else. they believe you are right.

holidays = more time together please?

have you been fine?

2008-05-19T10:22:00.000-07:00

You'll always be a part of me.
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.
And we'll linger on,
Time can't erase a feeling this strong.
No way you're never gonna shake me.
Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby.

i know you are right. i can't get enough of you and you know that too.

when will a day have an extra hour for me to be selfish to keep you for an extra hour?

time didn't heal any wounds, you did.
you healed the wounds with no scars open.

i got it over. you didn't appreciate me. someone else did.
don't think it was only me.
you played your part in this now.
chances after chances. you just didn't see it.
don't blame me for moving on.
why do you have to regret only after you have lost it?
i won't be the one you truly love.
you never knew how to appreciate.
well, she knows.
i'm sorry i'm gone.
i'm gone and i chose to be selfish.
though there were times i really wish you understand how i felt, you never will.
blame it on me, just blame me for spoiling you.
WE KNOW IT.

goodbye. time will explain it all for you and me.

all i need now is her love and only her.

2008-05-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

i shouldn't see you.
can't you just disappear?
cos there's too much i wish you would know but we won't talk again.
upsetting enough.

am i regarded transparent?
you just don't know how i feel.

CONGRATULATIONS.

i'm finally free!

2008-05-12T08:51:00.000-07:00

i have to be amused by the way you say u hate the way how your friends are treating you but yet you still can be so much closely stuck to them. are u plain dumb or ARE YOU PLAIN FAKE?

i'm out of trouble, fianlly.

myhappylady,
breaks in between periods never got so fun!
i miss spending time with you.

=(

will tomorrow arrive faster?

2008-05-07T02:38:00.000-07:00

i moved on.
i left traces of me behind,
but i have moved on.

i shed enough tears,
i drunk my sorrows away.
i see you fading away,
slowly, gradually.
and i've moved on.

done enough and said enough. i tried and i waited. don't blame me for moving away. u forced me to. maybe putting the blame on me would be the best escape and excuse for you to use.

it was 5th, i was reminded it would almost make up a yr.
i was wrong, i moved on.

i'm much happier now, it's been a week. your memories which used to fill my heart has been fading, bit by bit. as though it's removing the pieces of jigsaw puzzles that formed a masterpiece.

i found my escape from another broken heart. i have moved on.

2008-04-27T08:24:00.000-07:00

i'll be there for you this five words
these five words i say to you.

thanks for being there.

i'm moving on, for real.

after all the dragging on. =/

will we be okay?

2008-04-18T11:07:00.001-07:00

what do you really want?

i'm getting tired of this...

i'm sad.

2008-04-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

missed investiture. which is a good thing. at least i don't witness it. i won't be that sad. no i'm fine i guess.

but i really wished i could play today. it stinks being the supporter and knowing you can play better than so many of the rest.

anyway inter-con, i'm waiting for it!!

life's gonna be fine from tomorrow on. I HOPE.

i need motivation to study. yeah.

2008-04-14T03:45:00.000-07:00

are you asking me to stay?
are you wanting me?

didn't you want me to move on?
what do you mean now?

tell me. i need an answer.

i'm confused.

please motivate me to study soon.

2008-04-09T06:46:00.000-07:00

soon i ll forget.

soon u ll forget.

don't worry.
i'm moving on, trying to.

2008-04-06T21:34:00.000-07:00

for seconds bells were heard. head spinning, slowed down speech.
bottle and jugs of alcohol runs in my body as i sat down, singing and laughing hysterically.
this isn't me. that's not me at all.

but is this my final escape?

i distant myself from u.
lighted a ciggarette, i sat down thinking of what you have been hiding from me.

i guess i'm unsure of the truths and the lies.

2008-04-04T07:04:00.000-07:00

This is my last call to you, then I'll give up everything that we had, that we'd do. And you'll never hear me sing all these songs about you.

im giving up. don't worry. i give up.

now i know that we wont have any happy endings. you never changed. you never changed before.

goodbye.

I NEED TO FIND FUN BADLY. i'm just not me. i'll be gone. don't worry i'm fine.

2008-04-03T09:46:00.000-07:00

soon. soon i ll learn to move on. EVERYTHING.

i just need time.

i need to get hold of all those raging emotions.

and count my luck for spoiling the LCD of a PSP. i need cheap shits for the replacement.

2008-04-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

still hoping to get over it soon.
new post, congrats and hopefully a better job done.
needing a new life.

when would we be fine?

2008-04-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

fool me on this april fools'.

"now i don't want it anymore. im tired. sorry"

where are you when i needed you the most?
what did i do wrong?
didn't you say that you want me back but why ain't you doing so anymore?
am i wrong to have been like how i was towards you?

okay. take this back one step now. ain't i tired too?

maybe i should stop bothering. maybe i should stop caring. maybe i should move on.

"why are you waiting anyway? "

gimme a sign.

foolish mistakes, i need an escape.
someone please... just someone to let me know how to carry on this.